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It’s finally over
He is no longer a “thing”.
Well I mean at least he apologized for being a fucking asshole and a total waste of my time. It’s not like I didn’t know he wasn’t a waste of time because we were mutually wasting each others times. But I’m a girl so would I have accepted something “more” out of a “hookup buddy” sure. He texted me tonight apologizing for everything he’s done… he told me he doesn’t want to do what we’ve been doing anymore because I deserve better, and I’m a great girl who can be just fine and can easily find another guy who can actually invest time in treating me right. (All according to him) and honestly, He’s right. I DO deserve much better. I’m not going to lie, I cried a little bit when he told me that just because well this has been going on for quite some time, and I knew it would end eventually but I guess it was abrupt…ish… or maybe it’s just because I cry easily.
He said he wants to remain friends… I guess we can be friends. I’m sure nothing will change. It’s hard to believe he’s such a mommas boy and always so supportive of his dads journalism but he treats girls as if they are just nothing, people with no feelings… He seems like he was raised so much better and I guess that’s why I always had a little bit of hope in the kid. But you know what? you win some, you lose some. You lose most. Guys shouldn’t be the #1 priority in an 18 going on 19 yr old girls life.
School, Family, Friends, Earning money and being a good person should be the main priorities. Guys, they’ll come in time… just like everything. I’ll never give up hope of finding a great guy because even when I thought I’ve come across one and he wasn’t what I expected… I just move on, and look again. Every guy that doesn’t work out is just another lesson learned.
I’m not a dumb girl. None of us girls are dumb, really.. it’s all a matter of time.
And well, I have time to waste.
In other news— May FUCKING fest is this Friday.
Also, School is done in like 3 weeks and then my final grades are getting sent to SU… and lord, I hope it’s good news.